Day Three

Sometimes I wonder when people say "if you can make it through this you can make it through anything." I mean I like the sentiment behind it and the idea that it is actually true. And although this is hard, there has to be other things out there that are a heck of a lot harder.

I feel really lucky that I have The Boyfriend in my life, and I hate being apart. But I am not going to say that it is the hardest thing going, I think that is just naive.

Anyways I head down to see him in about 19 days. I am so excited, it's been too long!

Day Two

I think the worst part about long distance relationships are that every little thing is magnified... And even worse, when you fight and argue it is only so much harder to make and make things better.

When you are with someone a lot during the day, during the week it is a lot easier to brush off the little things, or move on quicker to something else. When you are only talking to someone only a few times a day and not seeing them it is so much harder.

We had an argument last night and I probably did overreact and he probably wasn't as considerate as he could have been. But I think that is a major part of being apart and miles away, each person needs to understand how the other feel and realize this isn't an ideal situation.

I think that is all for now... Maybe I will write more tonight

Still Day One, but with music

Like I promised below is a list of songs that have helped me through tough times and happy times... Some included sound like "break-up" songs but are more just empowering songs.

The Conversation - Motion City Soundtrack
Flat on the Floor - Carrie Underwood
Amazing Because it Is - The Almost
Same Old Lang Syne - Dan Fogelberg
Things People Say - Lady Antebellum
Miserable at Best - Mayday Parade
I'd Hate To Be You - Mayday Parade
Jesus Christ - Brand New
More Like Her - Miranda Lambert
Take a bow - leona lewis
Everywhere i go - katharine mcphee
Nothing that you are - mandy moore
Perfect day - cascada
Single - natasha beddingfield
Best you never had - leona lewis

This side of goodbye - the Shellye Valauskas Experience

Listen & Enjoy!

Day One

Last night when I decided to start this blog it was because I was having a really hard time dealing with my emotions inside. I thought it would be a great idea for me mentally to be able to write all my thoughts down. Why on a blog? Because maybe I will be able to find people (women and men alike) who are experiencing what I am currently going through. Perhaps they have insight, or can feel like they are not the only people going through such a tough situation.

I've always had a problem, or a way of looking towards the future and not enjoying the present. But of course it is hard not to look towards the future when the future is with the person who you plan on seeing all of your future with. I wonder how I am suppose to not look towards the future. How do you enjoy a time (never mind a hundred of times strung together) without the person who you love experiencing those times with you? That's open to anyone... I'd like to know how others cope and handle the difficult times that coincide with having a loved one more than a short car ride away.

"thoughts of you warm my bones" - Ocean and a Rock by Lisa Hannigan

More later... I have a great song list that I am going to add on here soon

Day One - A Preface

This blog is going to be my outlet. My boyfriend and I have been together almost 3 years now, half of which we lived in the same state (and city), and the latter half exactly 419 miles apart. Which is actually ironic because we actually met on 4-19... but regardless.

Tonight I lay in bed thinking of him and us and how much longer until we are back to living in the same state (and city). That is in approximately 230 days. So for each day until we are back together, I vow to write something about how I am feeling about him and us that day. I can't always promise it will be happy, or encouraging, but I can promise it will be heartfelt and truthful. So please, bear with me...